Today i have decided to write about something a little serious, its what i am feeling right now as i turned 27 a month back. And trust me it's not gonna be depressional, so kindly don't leave just yet..
Though to be honest i might not even make sense to some but some may relate to it and may find it helpful or at least can relax knowing they are not alone in this state of mind.
i have been having this feeling since it was my 25th birthday which was 2 years back, i didn't feel like celebrating as i thought, what's the point in celebrating when i am actually growing old and nobody wants that, right?? But nobody can help it either "time and tide waits for none".
And i felt like it was too soon i really was just a teenager few days back,even though thats not true, but its just hard to accept, right??
I mean i had only started enjoying my freedom of being an adult,well almost an adult and in my head i am still trying to figure out how to be an adult (at my 27).
It's just a number, age is, but it brings some invisible strings of responsibility when you are still fighting to remain a free, independent spirit and yet u manage to tie yourself up, and yes we do it.. cause we also want to settle, fall in love, have things for our own, basically all of those things which comes with responsibility, and then you feel so tied up. It's a confusing time in everyone's life,to be matured or not to be??
And now that i am 2 years older and wiser that i realized, perhaps we never really know that, with time we just keep doing the things that crops out at that point of time, but we never stop wondering too.. if we could have done it better or if we could have avoided it, stuffs like that.
I am kind of having a feeling that i am losing a lot of reader by now, but i am just writing what i am thinking it's not a planned thing and i guess thats why its going to help someone understand even more clearly, because its a natural state.
Anyway, i see a lot of people around me who are in the range of 20-29+ and they all, at some point, question themselves, or may have asked somebody in the middle of a telephone conversation, or talk about somebody who is going through this "clueless phase of life” ..
And when we all leave for our home and hit the bed it all starts :
What are we doing? -- What are we really supposed to do? -- Was i meant to be living this life? -- Was this my dream? -- Could i have done better? -- Could i be doing what he/she is doing? -- Could i be better than them? And the list goes on..
But then we fade into sleep and we wake up and do what we were doing in life before asking ourselves those questions..because that's what is going to pay our bills. And honestly not doing it won’t even be practical.
But what about those recurring questions which keeps you from sleeping at night? Will they stop? NO, they won't ever stop. If someone tells me today that by the time i reach my 50's things will all fall into places i wont believe as its against human nature we always WANT, and if you live your life wanting and not getting you will never forget.
Yet, why do we go back to our regular life which is failing to give one answer to all those questions that we have for ourselves???
Simple, because something is better than nothing and we definitely want something to always keep going in our life. But what if there is a way and its not as difficult as it looks, or for some may be even difficult but is it worth? Hell yes..
Now, you probably have started to giving it a hint of thought so i am going to tell you secretly, don't freak out and change your mind just too quick, it is going to be tough, but.. but hear me out it's only cause you got too used to the life you were living just like going for gym, it's hard only in the initial days (which anyways you were going through by getting unhealthy and probably would have prolonged if you din't took the first step) so just hang in there a little longer and gradually you will see how fast you will adapt, and you will, because positive changes always bring excitement which makes you more energetic.
So now to the things that i do to keep things on track :
And those of of you who is thinking it's impractical to take a day's break from all the things that you have to, Just ask yourself why are you doing what you are doing anyway.. for betterment of your life? So why not Take 1 Day from Your LIFE to Focus on Your LIFE?
Though to be honest i might not even make sense to some but some may relate to it and may find it helpful or at least can relax knowing they are not alone in this state of mind.
i have been having this feeling since it was my 25th birthday which was 2 years back, i didn't feel like celebrating as i thought, what's the point in celebrating when i am actually growing old and nobody wants that, right?? But nobody can help it either "time and tide waits for none".
And i felt like it was too soon i really was just a teenager few days back,even though thats not true, but its just hard to accept, right??
I mean i had only started enjoying my freedom of being an adult,well almost an adult and in my head i am still trying to figure out how to be an adult (at my 27).
It's just a number, age is, but it brings some invisible strings of responsibility when you are still fighting to remain a free, independent spirit and yet u manage to tie yourself up, and yes we do it.. cause we also want to settle, fall in love, have things for our own, basically all of those things which comes with responsibility, and then you feel so tied up. It's a confusing time in everyone's life,to be matured or not to be??
And now that i am 2 years older and wiser that i realized, perhaps we never really know that, with time we just keep doing the things that crops out at that point of time, but we never stop wondering too.. if we could have done it better or if we could have avoided it, stuffs like that.
I am kind of having a feeling that i am losing a lot of reader by now, but i am just writing what i am thinking it's not a planned thing and i guess thats why its going to help someone understand even more clearly, because its a natural state.
Anyway, i see a lot of people around me who are in the range of 20-29+ and they all, at some point, question themselves, or may have asked somebody in the middle of a telephone conversation, or talk about somebody who is going through this "clueless phase of life” ..
And when we all leave for our home and hit the bed it all starts :
What are we doing? -- What are we really supposed to do? -- Was i meant to be living this life? -- Was this my dream? -- Could i have done better? -- Could i be doing what he/she is doing? -- Could i be better than them? And the list goes on..
But then we fade into sleep and we wake up and do what we were doing in life before asking ourselves those questions..because that's what is going to pay our bills. And honestly not doing it won’t even be practical.
But what about those recurring questions which keeps you from sleeping at night? Will they stop? NO, they won't ever stop. If someone tells me today that by the time i reach my 50's things will all fall into places i wont believe as its against human nature we always WANT, and if you live your life wanting and not getting you will never forget.
Yet, why do we go back to our regular life which is failing to give one answer to all those questions that we have for ourselves???
Simple, because something is better than nothing and we definitely want something to always keep going in our life. But what if there is a way and its not as difficult as it looks, or for some may be even difficult but is it worth? Hell yes..
Now, you probably have started to giving it a hint of thought so i am going to tell you secretly, don't freak out and change your mind just too quick, it is going to be tough, but.. but hear me out it's only cause you got too used to the life you were living just like going for gym, it's hard only in the initial days (which anyways you were going through by getting unhealthy and probably would have prolonged if you din't took the first step) so just hang in there a little longer and gradually you will see how fast you will adapt, and you will, because positive changes always bring excitement which makes you more energetic.
So now to the things that i do to keep things on track :
Take a day off
Yes do it and when it's time to leave the bed start it by “starting" to think, plan & focus on your life and only your life for that one day, forget about your parents, spouse, siblings, friends, job, loan and all the other things but yourself. If you lose focus from yourself write down on your walls the word "ME" all over the house, it will help and please do it as otherwise you are just wasting your time and cheating yourself, instead of which you could probably not have missed your class or job or anything for that matter..And those of of you who is thinking it's impractical to take a day's break from all the things that you have to, Just ask yourself why are you doing what you are doing anyway.. for betterment of your life? So why not Take 1 Day from Your LIFE to Focus on Your LIFE?
Sort out your priority list
Don't be afraid to change your list, you can add or omit out things or change it entirely. Yes start with new goals or dreams cause cummon we both know they change with time..
So don't be afraid to accept it, just please keep them real and there's nothing to be afraid of. And not because i am saying, if you look at it there really isn't. It's after all your life and if you dont change it you will be not living it fully so just do it. As YOLO (look up if you don’t know what it is) sorry couldn't help it ;P
So don't be afraid to accept it, just please keep them real and there's nothing to be afraid of. And not because i am saying, if you look at it there really isn't. It's after all your life and if you dont change it you will be not living it fully so just do it. As YOLO (look up if you don’t know what it is) sorry couldn't help it ;P
Make a physical list, write/type them down not because i think you are incapable of remembering notes but i think you might have a lot to remember, and also it's not a day's project.. you are going to have to follow up amidst your busy schedule so better write them down somewhere and keep your head free, incase some new ideas pop up.
Keep it clean
It’s important to write things as there will be so many things clouding your head that it might just want to stop. But also you have to keep it neat and tidy and clean, do not use heavy words or long ones. Try to focus what you don have to write and what you have to, not everything is worth noting. Make small goals to reach the bigger one. Stay calm and practical throughout..don’t over/underestimate anything that, which might come to your mind, because your sub-concious mind is your best friend, it knows you so let it help and guide. Pay attention to every small detail, the whole day is there don’t worry.Time yourself
Keep a time span for every small thing to achieve, it’s vital and we know why. If you don’t track it there is a chance of it getting procrastinated and in some cases cancelled. And skipping steps might look easy but it’s not worth taking the risk, you might have to start from the beginning again and which probably you won’t do thinking it din’t work once so why take that effort. So time and follow each step with sincerity.
STOP.. don’t quit yet
Please wait. If you have been following what i suggested, i am figuring it's noon by now and you have gone a little tired and stressed out and probably want to leave all these and take a nap or watch a movie or hangout with friends, i beg you, Don't. It's easy to be distracted but do you want to be distracted in the middle of changing your life?? And if you do then you should know that it's never gonna change cause you stopped in the middle, for being bored of thinking about life and life is revengeful, it won't take it lite and make you pay for it.
And in the next section i promise if you scroll down you will feel a little relieved. so please don't STOP.
Take a break
See as i promised, it's time for a break go make yourself a good, healthy, tasty meal and watch some youtube videos or listen to music. You are not preparing for exam, even though life is nothing less than that, but you need to unwind too, cause a lot of possibilities and ideas must have been swarming in your head and by this time it feels like you might explode, so don't stress yourself and take the break. Enjoy and please come back, please.
Restart & recheck
Start from where you left, look back in the list and now with a fresh mind check things minutely. Strike out anything which may seem unimportant, add if necessary and make everything in an order. Don’t let anything overwhelm yourself, if your goal is real and your plans are practical you can do it.
Remodel your life
You know what works for you best, so give it a go and change your life around your plans. There will be some necessary sacrifice on the way please don’t avoid them, you have to get selfish and keep in mind you have to make something happen and in order to do it you have to do everything which it asks for.
Goodluck
My wishes are with anybody who is ready to take the big chance in their life, whoever has the dreams and the zeal to make them come true, who is willingly giving their best shot at life, and most importantly who dares.
Do not forget to let me know in the comments section if you have any question, doubt, or just want to share more t it. I am always going to read and write back or even have discussion.
Much love and power to all the 20’s everywhere :* xoxo..
1 comment:
Excellent piece of writing!! Something i can relate to and probably everyone else will.
We all are living our life in a way that we have forgot to live, we have forgotten why we at all started.
Today when anyone will look back into his life, be that person be 20 or 70, he/she will agree that this is not where they wanted to be at first place. People kept on changing their goals in life and have reached to this place. But are we happy here?? Even if we accepted the changes, we could never make out peace with it.
Easy to think, hard to do but very much needed to take break of 1 day in life at the earliest and think, analyse, priorities that was I supposed to do what i am doing now, may be wanted to do the same, but differently.
Lets Stop for a moment and introspect and for the 1st time, listen to the heart than listen to your mind.
Once again Haimanti Chatterjee, its a nice and wonderful blog.
Keep posting.
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