on certain days i feel like a li'l birdie locked up in a closet,shivering, almost fainting but i am alive i can feel my pulse beating..
and some days i am the horse who runs free in the woods, fearing no one, untamed, unnamed, wild and carefree..
and the next day i am all concerned and loving my life more than ever, dreams to make it more and more beautiful..!!
and then again i am all alone and want to live my life that way, secluded from those who care about me, my life...
Is this what is termed "multiple/split personality disorder"..??? Is it going to last till I do? I hear voices in my head and i lay awake at night just to find out why can't i get some sleep when people around me are in deep slumber..what is that i need? am i happy or am i sad? I have problem knowing myself.. there are things that i want to happen to me and then when they happen i suffer i wanna escape but i am already in the mud. who can clean that off??? is there anybody or anything which can give your mind that enrichment which it is looking for?? i know my mind is like a flower it can bloom, it does, i have seen many a times.. and then i lose the control... and i am somehow in the process it's me,who is lost... but i don't want a path to follow, neither any rule would do.. i just wanna be myself for sometimes then i can,may be, again take over, or if there's a question of chance then at least i can try..
and some days i am the horse who runs free in the woods, fearing no one, untamed, unnamed, wild and carefree..
and the next day i am all concerned and loving my life more than ever, dreams to make it more and more beautiful..!!
and then again i am all alone and want to live my life that way, secluded from those who care about me, my life...
Is this what is termed "multiple/split personality disorder"..??? Is it going to last till I do? I hear voices in my head and i lay awake at night just to find out why can't i get some sleep when people around me are in deep slumber..what is that i need? am i happy or am i sad? I have problem knowing myself.. there are things that i want to happen to me and then when they happen i suffer i wanna escape but i am already in the mud. who can clean that off??? is there anybody or anything which can give your mind that enrichment which it is looking for?? i know my mind is like a flower it can bloom, it does, i have seen many a times.. and then i lose the control... and i am somehow in the process it's me,who is lost... but i don't want a path to follow, neither any rule would do.. i just wanna be myself for sometimes then i can,may be, again take over, or if there's a question of chance then at least i can try..
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